To the woman who may one day love me

 

“Somebody sees me, and I see myself through them. Then it’s all gone, the whole world falls apart.”  ― Anne Sexton

Dear future love,

There are things you should know about me. I’m a difficult woman to be with sometimes. For this reason, I want to tell you all of the worst things about me. I want you to know coming into this that you’re in for a battle. I need you to understand these things because I’d rather you flee early on to protect both of our hearts. To be with you, I have to know you can see this calamity and make it through to the other side. Please let me prepare you, my love. Let me outline the couch cushions so you never fall into the floor made of lava.

I’m flighty, but hold me and tell me the sky won’t fall.

I’m independent, but prove to me that trusting doesn’t have to be scary.

I’m petty, but remind me that there are two sides to every story.

I’m jealous, but show me off as yours.

I’m pretentious, but tell me that my brains are your favorite part.

I’m mercurial, but wait out the storms with me.

I’m self-conscious, but kiss all the parts that I think are ugly.

I’m childish, but embrace my need for stuffed animals and chocolate milk.

I’m neurotic, but teach me that everything doesn’t need to be perfect.

I’m prone to overthinking, but help me map out the ways that things are good already.

I’m needy, but reassure me that you’re staying only if you really are.

If you can do all of those things, you should also find that:

I’m romantic, so I’ll pull out all the stops for you.

I’m charming, so your parents will probably fall in love with me.

I’m smart, so I’ll always challenge you and teach you new things.

I’m chivalrous, so I’ll always put you first.

I’m sweet, so I’ll remember the little things you love.

I’m funny, so I’ll do my best to make you smile.

I’m loyal, so I’ll always have your back.

I’m perceptive, so I’ll be ready on the days you need me most.

I’m supportive, so I’ll never stop cheering you on.

I’m passionate, so you’ll never have to wonder if I care.

 

If you can love me at my worst, then you, my brave warrior, have tackled a beast that those before you simply crumpled beneath. If you can get through this quagmire, then please hurry along, gorgeous- I’ve been waiting for you my whole life.

XX

 

 

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